TIMES ARE BAD

today marks the second day of cai png adventures.

yesterday's menu was

Rice with cauliflower and chap cai,tofu,sweet and sour chicken-$2.50

today's was

Rice with bittergourd,fried tau kwa pieces and 1 braised chicken wing-$2.50


damn.why must there be a recession.things are soarly so much.
electrical tariffs,ERP gantries,food prices.
i think im gonna become a hermit.stay at home manxzxz.don't waste so much money.
stop going out!

ahh..and next week i'm going have steamboat with penny.money money money.AGAIN

was asked to do a quiz.here it is.

1. The person who tag you is?

Miss Chen Shufei

2. Your relationship with him/her is?

ex-class/school mate.present campusmate

3. Your five impressions of her?

proficient in chinese.your typical girlish character.

good talker.street-smart.further details not very sure.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?

not sure.haven't had much interaction

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?

you very nice to bully.yeah everyone thinks that.which im prefectly fine with.

6.If he/she become your lover, you will?

c'mon,we haven't spoke about dating yet.being a couple is like a super far-flung thing.

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?

i'm rather sui bian.some things apply.but not to a large extent.cannot go to far with some things.

but i can't imagine it.XD

8.If he/she become your enemy, you will?continue with life?

yeah.continue.but i will get out of her sight.either i escape from her crutches or she disappears from my life.

9.If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?

say wrong thing,monsieur.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?

enjoy your work for the last 2 weeks.oh and next one is TOP SECRET.

11. Your overall impression of him/her is?

haha.rather bimbotic.hahaHA!

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?

Tensed up.dunno how to relax.quiet.stubborn

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
serious at times.knowing me out and out can be fun.

14.On the contrary, the characteristics you hate most about yourself are?

NOT ENUFF C-O-N-F-I-D-E-N-C-E

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?

more confident yo!maybe a tad less internet hogging.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them?

come play elven blood!

17. Pass this quiz to 5 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you pass to people that have blogs only.

1.JiaWei

2.Samuel

3.Glen

4.Joan

5.Myself

18. What is no.2 studying about?

Diploma in Design.Singapore Polytechnic

19. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?

yesterday.

20. Does no.1 have any siblings?

yes 3 siblings.

21. Will you woo no.3?
C'mon.I'm straight.if i were to turn gay.his huge amount of leg hair turns me off.

22. Is no.4 single?
Not sure.probably

23. What is the surname of no.5?
LIN

hey.can i have a more proper quiz next time round!

Nature or Nutured?

well,i have come to terms with myself for being increasingly introverted and quiet since i grad and came into poly this year.
things are so different and i find myself with empty slots and no one to spend with.most prominently,friday afternoons.i used to hang out with friends on TGIFs.but since now.i find myself wandering around on my own,walking around aimlessly after i am done with my primary objectives.and whats worst is to see couples.holding hands,guys hand around girl's waist.pretty girls with average guys.ugh!
well,sometimes,i do feel it.but for most of the time i try to shrug it off and not think about it.
its until the past week that i start to think about these issues again.sian manxzxz

and being more reclused,i somehow think that i get to enjoy myself more.but also find it boring at times.good example would be my longing to get into a club feeling.
and i don't see myself spending alot of times with friends,close or cliques,either they have their own program,eg. classes,cca,classes. or that i don't have time when they are free.
you can call it sacrifices manxzxz.

tired!aches all over!

on the plus side.i finally went down to chinatown today for dinner.oh and the 145 bus ride..it was so fantastic.its the first time i had such a good time sleeping on the bus.
on the bad side,i hesitated again to eat the Oktoberfest stall.next time i guess.and i didnt had siew mai too!the fried beehoon+ hee sang+soya bean combo was enough to explode my tummy.


oh!i have been fascinating over samuel's new haircut these few days.makes him look like a cute little boy and i wanna ruffle his hair.haha.

"Ironically,for many people brought up in middle-class settings,the end of childhood marks the disappearance of a comfortable niche in which social events seemed to occur with no planning whatsoever."
(Overcoming Loneliness in everyday life,1996,O.Jacqueline,S.S Richard,W.Harriet)

a reply to MiN.

biomed is not a particularly easy course to get in.so first,congratulations to you.
for more info,you could log in to SP
biotech and biomed in SP are both rather closely related with the former being more diversified and focuses more on genetics and DNA studies while biomed is more towards the medicine side.
both are highly regarded as the toughest i must say to study.from my view of course as compared to other courses.
both courses have common year 1 modules which means what you study in biomed year 1 would be the same as your peers in biotech year 1.
and in year 2,you would be asked to spilt into either cardiac or medical technology.

you have to study smart,ie be prepared to understand each module and not just digest and memorise each chapter per se,in which some modules you have to memorise though.
yeah.thats the intro bit.


hmm,i wonder if she would be interested to read all these chunk...haha


anyway.back to my own posts.


wake up call


a close family friend of mine just passed on,to be precise,he was my dad's drinking mate,classmates in part time uni degree,classmates in TCM class and until just recently,colleagues in a tear and rebuild company.
the cause:cardiac arrest due to the bursting of the pulmonary artery.hmm,come to think of it.its very morbid.
and its particularly scary.just two weeks before.we were at a chalet booked by one of the other friends.and now.this.
things seems bleak.but life still carries on.
and its very hard i must say for the family.
imagine losing your father at this age of your life..its hard..but life still has to carry on after things clear up.
i tend to look alot into these things.and having said,there's been far too many deaths around me.and i thought yesterday night,omg my social circle(not particularly social circle,but more like peoplea round me) seems to be decreasing,my neighbour passed on due to cancer in august.and now this..
but being my usual me.these things wont bother me much after awhile.when things goes back to norm.



anyway,i need people to join my party in elven's blood in FB.haha

and my GPA is 2.63.
its shit!i know.and i think i havent really studied at all.
thats a statement to conclude the results.

and i can't believe that my mum rant and blame it all on canoeing.which is good.
and she just says,work harder next sem,you know poly is not so easy.
and i.it feels so shit!

i think i think too much.
i read too much into how meagre my allowance is as compared to my friends when the actual fact is that mine is almost the same as theirs.
and my results.it stunned me quite abit today morning when fauzi told me to check my mail.

just what is wrong with me?

the two main problems now are

1.my stroke.i cannot understand why its said that i haven't been doing it.maybe i was just doing it with more caution instead of what was expected.i find that the pulling force is very great.too much to pull,and that means i haven't been useing the other side as a lever.

2.my tensing up problem!!!
grrr.and it doesn't just apply to canoeing.its everything in my life.
how do i relax?omg.its like so difficult for my brain to comprehend.
i have been bombarded by meeting deadlines since primary 4,and since pri sch.i have had this mindset that i MUST obey all the rules.INCLUDING the teacher.and that i must respect them.
grr...and i suppose this carried on till sec school.which i come to think that i haven't done much in those years.
and the stress i face.at home and things alike!zomg!
and i can imagine myself leading this kind of stressed up tensed up life in 5 years or maybe even till i get married.that is if i ever...its like i work like a robot!damnit!



and i am beginning to dread trainings.i feel that the past enthusiasm is just not there anymore.and every water training makes me so damn more stressed up than land trainings.
shit!

chim bodo!

decreasing weights.decreasing strength.wth!

tonight's daredevil feat.......................eating turtle eggs.ie that of Pelodiscus sinensis.not that of the marine turtles.
im a activist okay!
haha

breaking the barrier

spent almost the whole afternoon over at ccab watching canoe polo matches.
its sad that we lost.but well,sometimes some things boils down to luck.

but on the other hand.
i guess the five of us bonded rather well during the trip to town.
i remembered kayne saying about levels thingy.
well,i can basically say that we managed to bring everyone down to the same level same frequency.
so i suppose next time we will be speaking to each other more easily during trainings.

this is the shit!
this is the shit!
this is the shit!
this is the shit!
this is the shit!

and more shit's gonna come my way in the next few weeks.
go jiahong go.more aggressive.grrrrrrrr


yesterday's thoughts

cephas
phelan
hanxun
10 rounds non stop
protein powder
tmr....water trg......try to do but not so much....
lunch sucks..ewww.i dont like the lemak nasi
6 sets of 400m sprints
must win four-eye
bia warmups.go.MUST GO!run!
woo!6 sets.OMG,i finsihed 6 sets.freaking hell.my legs.uhhh
gym.6 exercises.omg!knn.gone!
my chicken!!!!
hmm.nice..the youtube wid on marination's not bad...
the chicken's not bad...


today's thoughts

alarm clock chimes
oh shit.knn!
what?12.49?
am i late?
shit!knn.
chiong!
dad wakes
eh.fetch me to mac leh!
oh shit.must be late.
knn.oh no!
coach talks.
whats your aim?
aggressive!more!more!
switch boat leh.......
FASTER!GO!GO!GO!10 STROKES!FASTER!!NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
god damn shit.
"breathes"faster jiahong.faster.rmb what he says.aggression!
pull!another one!20!now go 30!shit.why boat goes wrong way.shit!
now 25!
knn!omg!.day after tmr!see the skies!
shit!huh!still got run?
chui man!
sprints?WTF?
18 tiems jog?okay.go!can one
omg?GO!








tired man!!!!!

listening to your guardian angel brings back so much memories.not fond,mind you.but memories.



gab was damn funny today.
willy was really really funny during sprints and gym.

had lots of fun during gym.found out that my side flies were wrong all along.now....time to correct!
spoke alot,being hyperactive.must calm down and focus.try to.but all work and no play makes jack a dull boy.

the 80 over pushups after 4k run was worthit.though it could be avoided.but i manage to grasp back my pushups.
didnt believe that i manage to complete 80 pullups today.so quickly in fact.
must continue training....

do i give up easily?am i the sort that gives up easily?have i given up on anything that hit me in life before?these thoughts hit me when my boat capped and capped again.

today was a tough day.currents were very strong despite the little number of boats out there.beginning,kept capping due to strong currents.paddle 1 to 2 mins,cap.go up platform,empty.go again cap.went out to 100m mark.and capped.ended up emptying the boat along the muddy bank.and capped again.
coach says that capping is a process of learning.and i associate it very much with falling down while learning to ride a bike.he says that its not that bad this week.(i hope that its real)



the second time i capped in the lanes.qz asked me."haha,so want to give up already?haha"
i was abit surprised.so fast?
but today is yet another obstacle.
明天會更好

bentendo for lunch

wahlao.blame myself for not seeing it properly.
its FROM 10.80..and worse,when i got to my seat.the set menu was arranged in monday.tuesday.wednesday......

monday

fresh basil pasta in tomato sauce-10.80

omu egg and rice with ebi fry-12.80

pizza hawaiian-11.80

prawns and smth pasta-13.80

what!no cream pasta on monday!

no choice.had to go with the simplest.cause the others dont really appeal to me.so much so for looking so nice on the display.

first came the salad which i chose instead of the soup.hmm not bad.but quite small serving.
then the ice tea.which i waited for rather long after finishing the salad.
nothing much.lipton tea with ice.and it took me awhile to figure out whats in the small little jug which later turned out to be sugar syrup.

pasta came.not really up to what i expected.maybe this is how japanese pasta taste like.
spaghetti wasnt cooked to al dente.still prefer pastamania's creamy chicken linguine.
but the basil was very fragrant.tomato based sauce was very tangy.but not what i like.(creamy chicken)

and throughout the meal,i was hesitating how to pay the bill.thank goodness the attendant saw my eye contact after i finsihed the pasta.
everyone else seemed to be paying by cards while i was paying by cash.

next up.vien thai!.must cheaper and i think it comes with a side dish too.

but its good anyway.cause i manage to go veg for lunch tday!

reclusive and quiet makes people think that you are anti-social

havent really got much to blog about.cept for the fact that i went on a chalet in the wkends.was rather norm,bbq and stuff but i cant really bring myself to talk,esp to strangers.queer habit which i am slowly acuquiring.i just stone at my seat.and think and think and think.which my mum thinks is unhealthly.

anyway.the first week of hols is over.
next up is maurice's workshops.

this is the first time in my life that i was so happy when i saw the changi airport control tower
-gabriel's recount on his round-ubin expedition

you are really tensed up.must know how to relax.i see you pull the strokes.must slowly breathe in and out.sing a song if it helps.
-nigel on my balancing of the c boat.

people who dont know you might think that you are stubborn.but youre not.you are just too much into your own theory and follow it so strictly.in fact i admire your brother more for this.
-a family friend whom i spoke to about not doing my part in the bbq.

downward spiral.

yep.thats what i think about teens these days,esp those that are aged younger than me.and i dont deny the fact that i am also actively participating in this trend.i guess its not something new.i have been seeing this when i was running as a ssg back then in ntss ncc.
juniors were slack.many of them skipped trainings and thought that it was so much more hip to be a hangout kid or to engage in wannabe ah bengs.it was tough to be a persuading and soft-hearted sergeant to be going out there and asked them to come back for trainings.but i'm so glad that i did that...i bet i was the only one who was so stupid to go after each of them.get them to sit down on one of the benches in the canteen and talk to them about the unit.and asked them if they were free.
back then,i didnt think it was stupid.i just thought,hey just talk to them la.since it was part of my job and the unit was really pathetic when it came to friday trainings.esp fridays since it was TGIF.and everyone wanted their fridays to be hangout day.it didnt mattered to me.since i lived so near town..hehe and i could go there in the night with my mum.haha
and i'm glad,i say again.that i did those stupid things.at least now,when we see each other,i get to say hi or maybe talk to them.maybe it was my unique way of bonding with people around me.

and it was tough also to get my compatriotes to go down to the podium every morning,to tie the national flag,and to raise it every morning assembly.few people wanted to do it.but now,coming to think of it.i don't really despise it..and i don't find it fucking glamorous either.but there was no regrets or negative feelings.call me a cold-blooded.haha.i bet when wynn reads this,he will be saying this too.haha..and even though i had to do the worst job of shouting commands for the assembly,i dont raelly hate it now.maybe it was part and parcel of my sec school life.
ah.how nice it was then....


oh,and back to the topic of downward spiral.i think i might get flamed.but anyway.i think kamil is right.on the subject of how newer generations are more lazy and older generations are more hardworking.look at ML,he's living example.haha or mrs mak who always never fails to give us prep-talks.
it only takes one person on orchard road to start donning a gucci lanyard.and everyone begins to wear it.showing it,dangling out of them pockets.and loafers too.and heavy eye makeups.and luxury bags and the list goes on and on and on.
actually,i also really want to have a gucci lanyard too.
but its really ridiculous on the fashion trend.thats why some people comment that sg people have the lousiest dress sense.and i really agree on the part that pairing cheap goods were luxury brands can also boost one's image.although i'm also a label whore.
and talking about teens younger than me.i was so shocked ytd when i read the headlines on home.
"16 year old kid dies in car crash"or something along this line.
its so wtf!he doesnt even have a driver's license and he zips around with his brother's car.and now,you end up gone...its very heartening ya' know.cause this isnt the first car crash accident that i read about.the previous one being a girl's blog i stumbled upon when i was foruming.her friend died in a car crash and the head had to be filled with wax during embalming.the thought of it just freaks me out.and how the girl was complaing on her blog on how wasted it was.that her friend went out with a total stranger and ended up dying from a car crash from a reckless driver.
my condolences...the thought of it just makes me feel so sad.and how i must cherish my life more.though i hate it at times.

and in today's news,of how majority of movie-litterbugs are teenagers.oh fuck it.sometimes,when i go movie outings with my freinds.they also do such stuff.but i am also guilty of it at times.though im not such a large bug.i dont like the idea of leaving what you eaten behind.
and this list can go on.even the idea of getting people to clear up their trays after eating.
and standing up when the national anthem sounds.though i dont do it.but there's a feeling inside me that tells me.hey its your nat anthem,why arent you standing up.

i remember this scene at bangkok,back when i was pri 5.i was on a holiday with my parents.it was free and easy time.and we went shopping at a mall.it was in the evening and i was walking up the steps of this hypemart.the national anthem sounded.back then i didnt know it was it. or i was rather innocent.i guess or stupid.and i saw everyone.including the roadside hawkers.standing up.then i think.then my parents say.oh."guo ge".and they continued walking.this was one of my first few experinces with nat anthems sounding publicly.i felt quite strange.i thought to myself.shouldnt we be standing too?
and this gradually became more apparent when i went on to secondary school.when i got into ncc.and there was once during speccourse at sispec i think.the nat anthem sounded.and we had to stand upright.
i guess i wont be standing upright any time now.cause i'm so afraid of being the odd one out.and that everyone else would be commenting about me behind my back.
a case of inconfidence?i believe so.


this is a rather long post.
and my mind comes back to the same topic.of my canoe life.
(cause you are in poly.and poly are so damn free.and that they are so much slacker than jc students.so all the more you should be able to cope.so you should be able to cope in canoeing.
and cause poly is so damn free.you should have a cca to fill up those free time.and as quoted by jh(not me,and i'm not saying who),canoeing is good.so that it fills your time.and so,you will realise that hey,i only have so little time left,although,in fact,you have quite alot.esp in the holidays.and when your time fills up,you will come to think,hey,i think i must study.so this will drive you to work hard for your modules,so that you can do well.even though you are doing well enuff,and in cases like me,when i feel competition.i will study harder.and this is the driving force for me i hope for these 3 years).sidewise,i think jh is a very good senior.to talk to and to drive you on.spur you further.not to say that the others are not as good.maybe i havent had enugg brushes with them.and that can be seen very evidently.
and then to say again.these thigns dont really stress me up.maybe my mind work liek that.maybe my mind works like my mum,who emphasises more on hardworkingness and not working in a smart way.which i'm soooooooo afraid of cause they say that in poly one must be able to work smart.which i think i cant and never can.the thought it just freaks me out.esp in my class where more peopleare picking up the smart approach.and because i think i can never grasp the smart approach.haii.
dont need to be so "ju sang" over this anyway.just do consistently lor.if i cannot work smart like them.i will do doubly hard.at most sacrifice more of my time.haha

woah this post is long.i wonder if anyone bothers to read it.
andif youhave read.please tag by.let me know your presence.

spill the beans

towned today.
had been a long time since i breathed orchard air.not that the air there is exceptionally nice to breathe.began at FEP,and went all the way to cine in the evening.
well...what did i do at FEP?
hmm,people watched and got my pair of small studs again.was very surprised when i was recognised by a salesgirl over at one of the shop.she identified herself as yijun.and on the spot,i tried to recall and yijun in my pri skl days...haha.the only yijun i could recall was the one in 4/3 from ntss..you know how elated i was when i was recognised by a girl.hahah.on the streets somemore.hahaha
oh.and i saw lisa while we were having half priced waffles over at gelare.tell you smth.GELARE ROCKS!the waffles is soooooo smooth.and i presume lisa was from crescent.

and you know how emo like get whenever i go pass dress shops like potpourri or mphosis.or whenever i see long flowly dresses.how i hope that my gf next time will be able to wear them and how pretty she will be..wahhhhh..siaaaa!!!
and deng lin actually remembers who am i!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SO LONG AGO!

What Jiahong Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

pretty true.and lots of loopholes these kind of things are.
anyway.this blog's becoming more of a weekly kind of thing.
will be going out with jw tmr.quite a long time since we went out.and i pray.no sakae pleaseeeeeee.....i have a phobia of it already.