another busy week.busy running here and there.doing things,no related to studies.i feel rather guilty actually.lots of things to say.but just dont have the right feeling now.

simplicity is bliss?i tend to think very much out of the word simple.i go to the extents of what's gonna happen or what's not.isn't that very much complicated?who doesn't wish to live a simple life.
well,some things are there.no matter what happens.just like how feelings are there,and its just a matter of whether you bother to check em out thats all.

was feeling bored.so i decided to google the meaning of ernest.
Derived from Germanic eornost meaning "serious". It was introduced to England by the German House of Hanover when they inherited the British throne in the 18th century, though it did not become common until the following century. The American author and adventurer Ernest Hemingway (1899-1961) was a famous bearer of the name. It was also used by Oscar Wilde for a character in his comedy 'The Importance of Being Earnest' (1895).


http://www.behindthename.com/name/ernest

pretty accurate eh.haha

anyway,had two of the teeth on the left side extracted out.now its feeling so bare.and so naked.i can just feel the gums and the raw-ness.and 5 days MC.hoho.lolololol.

rigour mortis

i am highly elated to have received news that the shifting of boats for the upcoming IWF have been postponed.i am so bloody glad about this.this means no more kallang chap,no more capsizes and more time in between trainings and school.and more free time for me.and jerald mentioned about the water being infected by bacteria.luckily man.and i hope by the time its IWF,the water's been cleared of all the nasty enterococcus or whatnots.

things aside.i have been acting like a robot this week.training,going home.sleep,school,training,and of course thinking.but the daydreaming part have been rather slack these days.most of it is being used up by sleep in class.i mean naps.sorry.i guess life's gonna be like that until after comms.or perhaps,until the time i choose to take a break.

and i think i'm a wuss.seriously,i need some guts.

i guess some things are better left unsaid

32 days of abstinence

today marks the start of terror.just received news that i would be back on kallang waters for IWF.
good luck to me.

now my feet won't touch the ground

camp is finally over,over and done with.learnt quite a few things during the process of this camp,and i managed to tank all the logistics work throughout the whole camp.and many thanks to the fellow logistics committee ie. farhan,zhang jia,benjamin polo and all those who helped with the making of the milo every night.(merv and people) etc,etc etc.i'm really thankful,i don't think i could have made it if i were to one man show.

okay,today was back to reality.lessons were damn shitty.and as per norm,it started to rain during mol bio lesson.rather strong and quick rain.and lessons were as per usual,very chim.

epiphany

just came back from school.gonna leave home for camp soon.
lets just attend this camp with an open mind and enjoy ourselves.you wont get to see such things happening soon after once all the training resumes.
and i love my gems.i feel that its a source of getaway for me,something different from all the technical stuff taught during class.its something resembling childhood classes,speech and drama.something less demanding than all the science stuff.

well,camp soon.wont be back till sunday.and got lots of stuff to do when i'm back

Cause you’re the only song I want to hear

had an impromptu collection of the health screening.well,at least doubts about being a carrier were cleared.then proceeded to have a late teabreak of clementi porridge.
headed to town to meet the two ladies.had sakura for dinner.no carbs,full protein,fatty acids,glycerol and fibre meal.
pictures to come soon.

and it was such a romantic wednesday night along orchard.the buskers were playing songs like open arms,i'm yours.sadly,it wasnt the right company i had with..


hesitating waiting.waiting for the time to come.

saturday nights are very private timeslots.people tend to reserve this special time for their loved ones,be it families,friends or the other half or yourself.not many people are bugged down during this period of the week.its probably one of the few times during the week,whereby you have full control over what you wanna do with the time etc.
someone once told me this.quite long ago i must say.its almost a year ago since i met this particular person.very eventful experience.and i must say,things have gotten so much better since this period last year.

well,its really up to you.if you really like it and wants to pursue this sports,go ahead.for me,its actually over already.now,i don't really find meaning in training so much.at least not as much as last time.
someone i spoke to yesterday.its really quite amazing how little i know the person and yet such thoughts can appear in the convo.nevertheless,i appreciate the advice.thanks.

lub a dub

C2 was great today.slowly improving.much better than last week and i was able to control the direction much better.the rain made everything much more lightening.
2 days of continuous waterworks.hope i can reach the quota of fulfilling the 5 days.3 more days to last!jiayou!

think

have been bother by some un/necessary thoughts lately.i feel that i shouldn't give such thoughts a chance,perhaps,its alittle too early for these judgmental thoughts.in fact,i should just place my mind on training and the eversobothersome studies and revisions and late reports.maybe i should pick up another novel.the alchemist is dulling me.with all the philosophies.maybe too long a break i suppose.
Perhaps,i should heed koh's advice.
5 days straight of waterworks.from today onwards.tomorrow shall be C2 day with beany.finally a companion on the racecourse.
and the year 1s are coming in.right on thursday.and how should i act?

cold

never felt of damn tired in my life before.and my nose's running like a tap again.caught the bug for a second time.fell asleep twice or should i say thrice.training tomorrow.have to read up this weekend.and i feel so bored...i wanna go hang out.

It's amazing
How you can speak
Right to my heart

stress operon

i need strength and mentality to pull my through these few weeks.once i recover,i will try to give what i can.i don't know how long i can last tho.formal reports are rolling in already.i'm gonna be a goner when i go to school.
and i must love running/pullup/weights/session after rows.i think people will think that i'm mad,but i actually like doing pullups.you can actually feel the strain when you do weights after rowing.its not a nice idea,but somehow,i feel satisfied.

repercussions

ask yourself honestly. is this what you want. can you live with your choice?
if you wanna decide. choose now. make up your mind. the more you drag the harder it will be to conclude.

i stumbled upon this phrase somewhere.and i was asked this question,by someone,somebody,a while back.since i have given my assurances and made my decision,i shouldn't regret it.somehow,2 years is really a lot of time.to be frank,i couldn't bear to see it being torn apart,once and again shredded.but i'm afraid,at the same time.what if i made a wrong decision,i know many whom have made wrong decisions,i know there really aren't much second chances in life.and since i have done so many things which made me regret so much for so long,i seriously hope that the really major decisions that i take after my 18th birthday will not affect me in my later life.i know i havent really been making big decisions in my life before.the accidental bio lessons which i took up in sec 3(cause i wanna do bio in jc/tertiary),the HCL lessons which i opted for in sec 2(cause it allowed me to have 2 points deduction in my raw score for O levels,and it allowed me to skip chinese in JC,which it eventually didnt work out).all these left me out in my clique,i could have played soccer with them everyday after school,defiaced school rules,but i chose to be a nerd.
and,3 more years of being tied down,will not really make much of a difference i guess.and things are getting way to complicated.time just gets more entangled.

Infestion

You are eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just happened.

What happens next will be determined by how you react.

You curse.

You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over. She breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize her for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt. Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus.

Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit.

After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 traffic fine away, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late, you find you forgot your briefcase. Your day has started terrible. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to coming home.

When you arrive home, you find small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daughter.

Its called the 90/10 principle.if only we applied it this morning when we knew about the infestation.if only i can know how to use this in my everyday life