making decisions

been thinking about tomorrow's interview for the attachment based in school.should i forsake the placement over at the birdpark for this?or should i go ahead with this molecular diagnostics thingy.

'masterplan'

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a chain of events recently made me think about how i'm gonna spend the rest of the days in poly,probably and maybe for the future.
I realised that maybe i would like to switch fields in the future.biotech's getting boring.seems like paddling is so much more fun:O ecotourism sounds good too:)
of course,it ain't that easy to change.plus,how am i gonna support ma parents when i'm unsure if i can get into a local u.(emo shitxz)
and,i had lunch with 小SS today,as usual.and,damnit.the couple eating beside us was talking about NS and stuff about school and buff db captains and canoe polo hunks:(
i gotta do something about this.....
now's the time,the best time to prove...

recently caught the elos mini bug

team talk with a different cast,a different feel and a certain poise.
it hadn't been easy,for the past few days,struggling to keep the team running.had it not been those trusty and cooperative sidekicks,i wouldn't have gotten the game up and running.
however,i just couldn't kick the habit of being overly stern and serious,evening during a certain conversation after training.how i wished i was able to.how i wished,with just a twitch of an eye,i could get them reactive to what i was trying to put across and make them laughsmile,so that i wouldn't become 'the bad guy',at least not forever.
well,communications hadn't been a big problem for me,cuz over the past few years,everyone else was more or less from the same platform.but i guess it ain't so bad afterall.

SCM 2010

haven't had time to write about this latest marathon yet.School's been sapping up life,training as usual.looks like things are really going the -ve way nowadays.been waking up late for class,can't help but find myself procrastinating to wake up.But,But!i'm conscious enough to note what classes could be afford to be given some leeway on attendance.

Peak Season is almost over.Now till MR still has a pretty long wayy.So is my mood for training.now's the time to train up those lagging gym weights.and to do some technique paddling.

'The sports scene is really one of a kind. But I get to see true passion, real effort and the darkest side of humanity. And I will continue to witness the best and the worst of all kinds, and I will continue the journey of self-discovery, so that one day I may attain my very own nirvana.'

To put things in a nicer way,lets just say that the competitiveness kills and reveals of the ugly side of mankind.This marathon has unleashed its jaws on me again,making me realise how fragile human thoughts are.Willy agreed on this too while i brought up the topic on the ten-tonner.How long does it take for one to witness the very worst of others?Not very long i suppose;when you're tired and mentally drained and almost hitting heat stroke capacity.Not very long...
I'm glad to have gone through this 27km with C2 tho.First time and we haven't trained much.Such a goodpathetic way to start off an endeavour.

well,exams are coming.gotta work hard again..sigh

first 19yo post

okay.its kinda expected tho.
have been enjoying myself the past two days,trainings hard and going out with friends,esp for those enlisting soon.looks like its kinda tough to meet hard after their heads turn into shiny disco balls.

it seems like a terrible thing,counting down the years of your life.big ole nineteen.
events which happened two years ago still remains pretty clear in my mind.i wish i could just party/work/play so damn hard that i forget about all the events which had occured.
But,anyway,life's gotten better these days.
Canoeing has come a long way for me,especially SPCT,things changed ever since i joined them for frequent dinners after trainings/town days.
biotech became bullshit after my life became canoeing.looks as if my parents were paying for holidays>study.and i haven't got the faintest idea of what's the most ideal job after grad.definitely,aquarium shopkeeper is out of the idea.underwater world still sound pretty good though.

the future's so unspeakable,but it aint distant anymore...