from now on,glenn shall be my role model!

april is just in a few days time.

he still remembers the night they spoke on the phone.the voice so clear and yet so distant.
it was a Sunday night,right after work.He intended to have dinner with his kaki,a relaxed and not so worrysome one.but it turned out to be the greatest regret he had in his life.

as usual,they gone down to the good ole nasi padang store down riverside.the meal was great and the curry chicken that day was fragrant and flavourful.indeed what he expected from a famous recipe passed down from generations.

they decided to have a slow walk and chat along the riverside after dinner,to allow the meal to digest and also at the same time,to catch up with old times.
"eh,so how was the date yesterday?"Dennis asked,offering him a fresh stick of pall malls.
but Warren gladly turned it down,flinging out his cellphone instead to check the periodic messages he receives from time to time.
something intriguing caught his eye,it was a message from jaslyn.warren's eyes scanned through it thoroughly and after reading it,his heart sank to the bottom of the abyss.its was a third time,that something like this happened to him.he felt a great impact and thought that he just shouldnt go on trying like this.he knew he was one whom takes things too seriously and also too harshly.
upon knewing that something wasnt right,dennis snatched the phone from him.
"aiya,girl only,relax la.move on la,outside so many!"
but warren was inclined this time on.he felt different this time round and that he understood what jaslyn meant.
he dialled her number,intending to settle this problem asap.and to understand what she wanted.

a familiar voice picked up the phone.warren recognised it straight.but he wanted to double-checked if its the right person,after being conned once by a girl's sister.
"is this jaslyn?"
"yes."
"you know,i understand what you mean.as in,i can wait.i know you're gonna be busy,with ccas and your A lvls just round the corner.you know,i can wait."
"but its really not fair for you.as in ya"
"but you know,i only liked you.
not knowing what to say,jaslyn hesitated for a second."em,im busy at the moment,can we talk later on?"
he hung up the phone as a momentarily pause caught up to him.deep down inside,he knew that it was going to gallows..
"eh,wtf you doing?you shouldnt say all these things"dennis exclaimed.
"shit!then how?"
warren pauses...
in his mind,he sat there wishing.somehow,that he hadnt knew all these..hai.

your skin Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

met up with jan and koh.
thanks man,for complimenting my style.thanks alot ah.
slacked around.snacked on his chips.and watched his collection of jeans.admiring and also thinking whyda hell he got so many black skinnies.
and his old skool.man!
and i somehow,forgotten the cords.must get alice back from wynn and maybe another session of disgrace.have to practice and remember it..for good!

another day,another week.
school's gonna start.real soon!
and its so scary,that no one else takes the same course as me.
maybe its good.

it was really painful,to see that the one you loved and engaged with and you waited with all your heart for 7 years and then 7 years after only to see that she has found bliss and that those times you spent with her spent were just memories,long and forgotten but jolted back by familiar tastes and scents.

and that eventually,you have to move on with life.and bury all the past behind.just like how you buried the engagement ring.

oh,and its only an excerpt from a tv episode!












malacca's really nice.
and i had some really super siao thoughts about retiring there next time when im old.
everyone there was so friendly and not cooped up in their own world and they all helped each other in telling tourists the directions..not selfishly keeping it to themselves.
and the whole feel is so different..
there can be a si lang tiam at one place and opposite it is some vendors selling papers and magazines.people there are so open about life and death.
and tell me to wander and go into a cafe there anytime man.its so fun knowing strangers out of nowhere and you sit next to each other and start a conversation.



and oh i so love the cheap food there.dim sums 7 for 3 riggits.not superior but enough to fill your after dinner's insatiable tastebuds.clothes there was restricted to F.O.S.dunno if theyre fakes but they do look good..and the cendol was pretty good.sweet was the gula melaka.
and managed to eat at the really old and rundown place we last ate 5 years ago.and their pomfret was.....ahhhh..nicer than my dad's cooking.

off to malacca in 7 hours time.
have a longggg shopping list to complete.
and a travel journal to be written.will take photographs.
and will hunt for streetside gucci vendors=D

If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life.


gonna catch bangkok love story.i dont care if its a gay flick or what.i just wanna see what gays go through,if its the same thing as how straight people go through.and that means im gonna catch brokeback too.wait to see if malacca has them.


how many relationships in the world is perfect as we want it to be? You wait for that person, that person will wait for you.

Its better to have loved and lost,than not to have loved at all.



i dare say that i believe in fate.if you meet the person one time,twice,or even thrice.there's a possibility that you see him/her another time,in another place,on another day in another year or maybe 5 years down the road..

anxiety+kan chiong personality=havoc!

i must really take things slow.
people will not like to see me in kan chiong state.its terrible..
and my mind can go haywire and run mad.like really.

so relax,take it easy...

its unbelievable how many people i see when i venture out each time
and seriously,i should take up the courage and say hi to them,regardless if they remember me.
i was contemplating just now,stoning on the bus.
when i got on service 5,i was alil surprised to see zhang lao shi sitting behind me.it was rather weird to me if i said hi and that she didnt remember who i was.so i decided not to.
and i guess she didnt remember afterall,cause there was no glances when i got down the bus.

and i saw eugene!at tiong,first at macs.but i felt that well,nvm,then again the the bus stop.then we got into a convo.

ah well,and then when i got off,i saw mak chee keong on a bicycle,crossing the traffic across towards my house.what a small world!
and i saw mak chee keong and gang with all the jokers of ntss having ytf at henderson that night.zomg!


and movie days shall be mat bag days from yesterday onwards.and we can keep all our sacks of lays and ruffles and nachos on top of the theatre ones.ahahah
and were all intrigued by the enlarged piercings of the negros.which we think were really cool.and the sabre-tooth one was really cool too.
and so,the actress wasnt megan,shes camilla belle.one hot chick.
and the love plot itself is really ahh,simple and so innocent.
"d'leh promised to come back and save me.and he will"

this is a fucking small world.
what are the chances that you get to meet the same person over and over again?

really sorry people.
you know i was in a bloody difficult position.
and ys,stop being pissed.its not anyone's fault that nobody can make it.and its not falling apart anytime soon.not with everyone around.



怎么隐藏我的悲伤
失去你的地方
你的发香散得匆忙
我已经跟不上
闭上眼睛还能看见
你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻
那想念的身影
如果说分手是苦痛的起点
那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你

我会发着呆然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
又想那一年你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前

心里的眼泪模糊了视线
你会看不见

jiahong thinks that he's the greatest fool that he ever knew.

and he's thinking that life now is so fucking boring.
what sets him apart is that he has just extended his last bus concession.
and that he can travel anywhere he wants.
do anything he wants.

its official!i'm gonna boycott seventy-seven street's piercings!all of them.
the more i look at it,the more fed-up i get.

and today is an okay day.
finally got to close sales with an xmm-ah lian customer.
red micro shorts+bugis street elmo tee+faux eyelashes=super hiao and hottt.
and amston was there saying,cfm she will come back one.and indeed she came back thrice.haha

and looking at ammy's case.its quite a sad one.
haii...

got the right lobe.there's abit of a problem.the hole's out of place.
and i made a big cuckoo!dunno where to place the face man.....
and industrial is soooooooooooooooo expensive..
GLENN,when are you free?march hols meet leh

and walked around at town and then went exploring the eastern part of our sunny island singapore where vice activity are rife and the culture explosive.

so,my eyes werent wrong.haha

tmr is big spending day again.meeting glen after work and gonna go sidewalk 10.
and the rest is self explanatory=P
next week is rest week!
and i must enjoy my march holidays!

woohoo!
tomorrow's right lobe.
sunday's industrial!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its maddening to write a post so early in the morning.

yesterday's meeting was albeit fruitful.and it was one that those that ended earlier than expected.
cabbed home right after.and it was the first day that my notebook's gonna be permanently fixed in my room beside my bed.its one of those few rare times i get to do it while that brother of mine is away for a camp.

i think i should really grow up.like yeah,in terms of thinking wise.and how i handle things.like real how.cause i seem to have screwed up so many of those past attempted relationships.its saddening.i mean like really.i encountered the worst of things.things that happened to friends around me.and i really hope that some of these wont happen to me.like,relationship nowadays are so fragile.
what if one day i got into one,and i found out that,well,i've enough.i think no more feelings.its just so shit right.and if you really found the right one and that you thinks that she doesnt understand you.and that you guys are drifting apart.
i mean,its tough right.like moving on after breaking up.its just so difficult.tell me how to move on when the person has really thought that she settled down with you and hoping that things wont change.


i dont know if im seriously sick or running a temperature by writing all these stuff.
maybe im dreaming,but i think it gets a gazillion years to encounter situations like that in the leap years.im just plain dreaming.

its a rainy sunday.
and it sucks.big time.although venue still has long queues due to their big promotions.
its so sad seeing orchard drenched in rain.with wet grounds.and few crowds..maybe,its better this way.low peak period.and the retailers have a breathing time.time to do their annuals.

and its weird.like how i spoke to sz just now.and how i told him about shopping at queens.
and how he asked how i was.and how i was frank to him about it.about how much i thought and worry.
nowadays,i wonder why arent i the same as other average guys out there.i dont see them worry excessively and they just tend to forget stuff so easily.i dont know why i cant be like that.
why i worry so much about things that just wont seem to happen.maybe it was how i was raised.like how i use to abide by rules in primary school and how i used to listen to my teachers so much.
and i remembered how i used to sat beside the teacher in kindergarten.and how i listened to her so much,as if i can her pet.and this lasted for the whole semester.and somehow,i didnt mind..its weird.


All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be

its march.time really passes very fast:(

been towning since yesterday night.
finally got my pair of CM.yeah.and i think its a right choice.the right colour and the right feel.like the way it sticks to my skin.had doubts just now,but i guess i should just try it out.i guess i will learn to like it.not necessary to exchange for the other more fanciful one.

and FEP is great...=D=D
great for seeing bues.and great for checking out retro and vintage shops.lots of leftfoots there.and glenndy and jw they all were all intrigued by why the concept of leftfoot!and glen didnt manage to get his VAANs.
and sidewalk 10 is cool......the vintage shirts there are on offer and im gonna get a shirt from there.tell me when you going yeah glen.


tmr's emo sunday!wtf!!!!!