STRAITSRECORD!
i must get something from that shop the next time i enter it.the place is so damn stylish can.its like some record shop set in the movies.think,jay chou's secret.the record shop where he spent time with xiao yu listening to oldies...yeah thats it.

and i've been aiming that blue/magenta/bubblegummy top havainas for a freaking long time already...have been seeing it everyday.will get it when the next pay comes..
and my pair of cheap mondays.

and my malacca trip during march.must bag stuff back.

And something's breaking up
I feel like giving up
I won't walk out until you know

reality over fantasies.
thats wad wynn and i agreed on over the phone chat yesterday night.
and it shall somehow be added to my list of spastic logics.including the seriously stupid one.=D

if i continue spending this way,i'll nver get my pair of cheap mondays.maybe i will,just that my account will go burst.

somehow,i've moved from r&b to rock.maybe its peer influence.but i think its so much better.though r&b does play from time to time.but the feel is just different.
and i've decided on an initial cca in poly.it shall be canoe...again!yeah.somehow,cj canoe left a deep impression on me.and i think its better than db in someways.

penny:haha we shall wait.anyway,the organiser's gone to thailand hasnt she?


and its not that i want to say it here or wad.
i just feel that i cant make my point to quite a few people around me.and then,i will get forced or XX to be participating or else i was pangsehing them.its not fair at all la.i didnt even agree in the first place and now you are trying so hard to persuade me to go.i have already told you that i had things in the afternoon.and reluctantly,i will have to agree.for the best among us.

and i do feel that he does get carried away and go too far at times,especially now.and that at times he's so conscious of him and his own image that people find it ridiculous and irritating at times.when things are so free and that he placed slots for work like almost everyday.and its not fair to my pocket at all.last sunday i went,and lost quite a bit.today im going again.wtfxzxzxxzxzxzxzx



and its not that i want to complain or wad.i know its shit to be writing all these stuff here.and that i cant find a proper channel to say all these things.

yes!
nice weekend indeed.beautiful.but sadly all good things come to an end.

i love last sat especially.
finally got the chance to sit down and watch a play,a musical,whatever.
and dsd was relatively great.maybe due to the local accent.it wasnt strongly peppered with angmoh taste.and it was made easier to comprehend by adding in recent touches here and there.and emma yong is probably one of the hottest among the three..and should have seen the scene where they stripped their sarongs leaving a dress or wadever you called.the whole audience was like wolf-whistling.

went for supper after that and walked home from chinatown.cool man.was sweating like a pig.when i got home.and i did a good deed by giving 1 dollar to a bloke who was probably trying to con my money cause he heard my impact box making noises while i run.

and friday's outing with glenn and gang was nice.
watermelon sheesha stuck onto my ciliated cell walls like nothing.
but i was pretty amused by my ability to create smoke rings.its so cute.its like how i learnt to blow bubbles with bubblegums the dunno how many times i tried.i feel a sense of satisfaction!


and finally.store's ipod got new songs.and listening to love me,colin raye in the early morning was really saddening.




I’m quiet, you know
You make a first impression

another day!
thanks for the tan penny,apparently,i look alil darker after supposedly watching yesterday's match.
not much chicks at nan hua.all look the same to me.
and their school is so cool having a toilet smack right at the side of the field.sponsored by SSC somemore.to die for!!!!!!sadly,their cubicles doesnt have toilet paper.

and to the person who is gonna organise another 2/3 bbq,do it quick.
i can help.i wanna go to the pit early this time round to start the fire,and learn to do it well.
and to think of it.its better to do this quick cause term's gonna start and who knows when we might be able to meet up again..

i realised that i have been thinking alot these days.which is really damn alot cause i still have those chunks that i can blog about here..

and i came to a conclusion,or somewad a statement,to put it less harsh.

its only been 1 and a half days and somehow,my thoughts just ran like nothing in my mind.he was definitely right about me thinking much more if i got admitted into a poly.
maybe it had all been a misunderstanding,escalated further by circumstances.i've thought and realised that,maybe she just found a right person whom she could clique with.and you know its like you can talk about everything under the sun that kind of friend.and somehow,i mistook everything.why didnt i thought of this in the first place.and now!look at it and ask yourself why things became like this..wth.

tell me how to pick up the broken pieces to continue.

been tired and dead beat these few days.
came home and slept straight after shower.
got into SP.maybe its a better choice for me.i havent really enjoyed much of my life and holidays.maybe i need a new start in a brand new environment.
and i must commit myself and not be so fcking childish and get entangled in all these problems and worry my life away.

i must!!!!!!!


What would I give if I could live out of these waters?
What would I pay to spend a day warm on the sand?

well,i dont hope for much.
just the best of things.i know stuffs like that cant be cleared just like that.some things just need time.and time and time and time..its just like that.hai.


就算没有结果
我也能够承受
我知道你的痛
是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容
沉默是因为包容
如果要走
请你记得我

5.30am in the morning.

catty cat=D

retarded shot that i tried to take.



the neverending stretch of road.


sunday!work day!

pretty slack today,no presence of crowds around orchard.
and,no one believes that i never had been together with anyone before.wth

yeah.and here comes the HOTA.
went night cycling on friday.it was way cool..
spent the whole night at ecp and changi area.
glen is being funny enough to wear skinnies for the whole day.
and i guess everyone else were fuck tired after the whole trip.
daideed and blackjacked in this shelter and changi beach park.
apparently,there was this cat that got attracted to me in the night.maybe its due to jw's hostility and that it found that i didnt shoo it away.and it just leaned and arched its back onto my bag.while i was listening to glen's nano.and talking about his nano,omg,he even has digimon song in it.must go get it already.

the long stretch of road leading to changi was great!!!!!




ahh...friday was just great great great great great great great!!!!!!!
i wanna cycle with them again.go another great place,and pee along the road at night.
i just cant go thru another O2 without all of you all..and things seemed to have become so much important to me.
and i wanna go esplanade with penny and peeps to catch dimsum dollies next week.


and this blog shall be picture intensive instead of being wordy,cant think much tonight.

and today in the stores,i thought to myself.what if tuesday came and you just disappeared like this.how will i react.and what if i really got into jc,how must i start my studies.damn!

happy valentine's day people.

had a great time yesterday after work.the quattro was great.with all the extra cheese.and such a coincidence that chin dee was around at cosmos.met up and chatted.
and chanced upon jan's psp.played megaman and suddenly feel so warm inside..
so much memories bout the game la.and i miss my playstation and x4.haiyo....



and i cant believe i!17 years and no valentine's on the day!
anyway,its okay.went out with class today.sat down and met lots of people.and had fun touring town..

well,its cny again!
happy cny dudes

had a fairly great time till now.

eve of cny:
reunion dinner after hanging out at vivo with class.found out gay's greatest secret.
dinner's steamboat was great.one of the best as compared to the others on second and third day.maybe there was shark'sfin.haha
went to watch ah long movie after dinner with brothers..wasnt that bad.mark lee acted gay very well and i like the swearings in the film.
met up with janvin after the movie.and we went supper at spize first.
then went walking around our lovely neighbourhood
wads so great is that,its all so freaking accessible.we could all walk home after hanging out.too bad to those who doesnt live so near.haha
went to robertson quay.and slacked on the colourful bridge.
all the way till 3am.its great.
great night of acting retarded and doing retarded stuff.some of which are censored and i must not say here.hahahah



nothing much on second and third day.
just house visits here and there.its like the norm and i have been doing it for 17 years.if i get bored of it,i dont find why older generations dont get bored.haha.so my point is,well,i guess life's changing.its sad to see the decreasing number of people gathering at my aunt's house yearly.everyone's so fucking busy with their own life.and that i dont blame lar.partially,not everyone can have the time like me.happily accompanying my parents to such visits.not that i dont have frens and commitments.haiz.

well,life's like that.and
i do hope my thinking for the rest of the year remains like that though.


i wish i could explain everything.maybe explaining wouldnt help much.things may well get worst after i splurt out things that i shouldnt say.

cny is fast approaching..very fast.
so must be in happy mood=D.

i've been thinking too much
somehow,i just feel that i havent had my piece of fun.not done with it..i havent got sick of hanging out at far east yet.
i havent got sick of acting ah beng in my class,by bursting empty packet drinks in the canteen by stamping them on the ball of my feet.
by swearing man hell lots.and talking broken ah beng english.and sitting kiao ka along the round tables metal wieldings.
and i havent made fun enough of nigel by tehing his nipples halfway during lessons.and listening him making fun of bio teacher aka mo beng face.and see him laughing at the maths lecturer's hair.
and all those stupid things that he did to amuse people..

i think i will miss all these..when term really starts.and they will fall back into memory.just like many other things in my life.

okay,deprived childhood!


emo season is over.think positive!
this last song.which i find it very impressive tonight.



Only two more days, until your birthday
Yesterday was mine
You'll be turning five
I know what it's like, growing up without your father in your life
So I pretend, I'm doing all I can
And I hope someday you'll find it in your heart

To understand
Why I'm not around
And forgive me for not being in your life

I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Waiting there to find nothing at all

Maybe someday
you'll really get to know me
not just FROM letters read to you
I pray I get the chance
To make it up to you
We got a lot of catching up to do

So I pretend, I'm doing all I can
And hope someday you'll find it in your heart

To understand
Why I'm not around
And forgive me for not being in your life

I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Remember waiting there to find nothing at all
I remember waiting
For you to come
Remember waiting
For you to call
Waiting there to find nothing at all

Forgive me!
I'm so sorry!
I will make it up to you....