nothing much these days,practically like wasting away at home except during lunches where i go out to have my meals.

went to lavender tdae for my lunch,had roasted duck rice.
it look kinda normal from the outside but it aint norm..it came wif a soup,dried vegies.lol...was knida surprised cause they didnt serve these at the shop below my hse....was lol...
i like visiting these dying places,where uncles forage and have their coffeebreaks and have a hearty meal.though rundown,i feel that the food's worth it.so much xin shi goes into preparing the food that you can actually feel,that hes not only serving you the food.

sometimes it s kinda LOL and kinda insane for me and myself to hop on and ride the bus around and dropping wherever i like..i get stares,LOL....
i believe, that by doing this,i can spend some time by myself,alone...thinking...and enjoying.at least by myself..all by myself.

its kinda weird.
i saw a usual scene tdae on the bus that i hopped.
an auntie tried to help a granny,told her a shorter route to get to this specific place,and this auntie was greeted with a nasty reply...tiam tiam....
maybe its human nature,maybe its the old people's thinking.

sometimes,we reach out to help others,lend a helping hand,maybe we would not have helped to their destination,but we have allow them a "de-tour" or maybe be a saint in one part of their life.

It's good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters, in the end.

Do not walk in front of me, I may not follow

Do not walk behind me, I may not lead

Walk beside me and be my friend

another quote from his blog...haha..dunnow ther is dere copyrights...

i find it meaningful,he has such a positive output in life,so much diff from last time.
maybe faith have moulded a much stronger character in him.


another bored out day..i think i did wad most ppl would not do tdae.i did the most boring act.
i sat on a bench,hard and blown cold by the wind coming out from the air-con.i sat there,alone,listening to my mp3 and tot about how i cld,and if i cld,save money,and maybe a few other stuff.maybe i shld do more of these stuff,im just afraid of the stares and looks on the face of others.it may be normal to me but to others,maybe its and act of insanity.
wadever it is......

Every sunset marks the end of a page,

Each person is given a certain number of chapters

Are you going to write them or leave them blank

saw this on BH's blog,well very written..

immature...call me that if you wish..
i guess im an asm in name..
saw BH's blog..and well,has changed over the year...

maybe its time for me to experience and change..

went down to gashaus this mroning to support eugene...
it was a darn rundown irish pub which serves as a place for this punk rock fest...
and yea,saw ken the fotographer for ophir there too..was wif his frens....

darn...the operators were like shit....
paid a bloody 10 bucs for the coke...not worth it...everything was like so old....
theres only 1 toilet and its upstairs and not to mention how cramp the place is.....
ppl went crazy and everyone else was like pushing ard when the band wanted some movements....it was pure havoc...chaos....things dropped...almost like a stampede...
and ppl were lighting away...maybe clubbing is not my things....maybe....but i guess wads a bar wifout loud music and smoking......
keith was in eugene's badn and well he didnt changed much...lol

damn disappointed....the tixs were better off to be spent on a movie.....

the weather's unpredictable,was all sunny and nice at 10am den now its pourin,like nothing.......

maybe it was me,with all my thinking...that lead me to think so much,so much bout the past....
maybe.

to pick up from where i left off?

i am so bored so foruming and surfing the same old sites..wad else can i do online?

the wrasse is so tame,even allows the divers to pet it....
so friendly...

a father's role in a child's life is so much important..though he nevers really show his concern to his child in such significant ways like that of a mother....he may be stern to his child,he may wield a rod ,he may feel that spare the rod and spoil the child theory is true.....indeed it is...after so many years,he would have felt that his such actions in the past,may have spoiled his dear child so much...yet now,he motivates and encourages his child to look forward..........haiz...a fine examplar of a typical loosen native dad...

well,gotta go,may blog later again in the day....

felt real bad after waking up just now..went down to maxwell to had dinner...didnt fee like eatin..must be the seasonings in the maggi mee.....not used to havin maggi...or maybe the late lunch...lol

did not qualify for shootin comm finals.......


watching the channel 8 show at 9pm...pity chen hanwei...fell for a married woman...
maybe its cos similar situation or wad,i felt something in this show..quite lol...

so bored..must go out after shooting comm...
went skl..trained ...did some discussions bout the open hse thingy...
haiz.....i hope this is a steeping stone for most of us..to get involved...ahhhhhhhh

another monday...sia la...days are passing too fast man....
wednesday's shooting..sigh....

i want to tinge my hair,my cca doesnt allow.
i want to keep long hair at the back,my cca condones.
i just want to be able to slack and spend time like just any other ppl,i dunno how shld i do...

sigh...
tsktsk....
hopelessly,hopeless,life......

im sooooo bored.....
went down to subscribe maxonline...makes no diff for me anyway....
my 1 for 1 ticket....who to give......

argh.........
shifted the com and now 2 independent networks are working.....
wad to write....so out of topics......

had a great time during restaurant dinner..haha...
sang karaoke...first time sei...very bad voice i realised...yet another gathering...how can i enjoy myself throughly?.....

december's round the corner...ad its the time of the year again....haiz..
remember that last yr i was still wrting everything on my autograph cum diary...
how time flies....
saddening time of the year.....rainy days,christmas and ppl are thronging down town...haiz......
ironic thing is that im still so em...able...

haiz...sad post...dun know why.......

casino royale?well 5 stars!...
go watch it urself and u will understan why i keep wanting to have the poker blogskins....haha

had a fun time during ys barbecue ytd..
tonnes of food and many cldnt finish it...
as usual,ppl were contributing to different roles.....
maybe you could say that im petty or even complaining so much....

some of us were quite pissed wif the ppl's attitude...though no one wanted to step out and rant...disaster will fall denn...
not having experienced this kind of scenario,i was advised not to rant...better to keep it to ourselves......
kinda dissapointed though seeing ppl acting like this.....if cca was the equivalent of our lives and ppl are showing the same aatitude as that of their lives...imagine tt...its so sadddening...but anyway its a bbq and we shld enjoy ourselves.....
too bad np head was not there...too down wif meetings....

joan came late and we enjoyed cooking the food together wif cedric...
and gosh cedric do know how to eat prawns.....LOL....
came home wif a full stomach....maybe too bloated wif water....have always anticipated such events and now that both bbqs have gone by...maybe its time to start cracking again......haiz.....

well,the bbq's great.went quite smoothly.
the fire started early too...
initially spoke ard wif nigel and mr chua...didnt really interact much wif ys and ivan..sorry guys..
den,served food...

unexpected things happen

piangz..took such a long time to upload these pics...
had a great day tdae...
one must not be too happy,contentment is enuff..else sumthing will happen...

met up wif kang,sheng and ivan tdae...
originally wanted to movie but didnt had the time and money so ended up buying stuff for this thurs and walking ard and toking...
tried carl's jr...shiok man...simply fabulous..the burger's so damn filling..hahas...and its so much better than BK's...though the fries i must say arent that fantastic.....
was surprised to see the kao pei kia aka walter working at vivocity's long john joint..kinda shocked too,though i guess he didnt rmb me.....

and ya,did a good deed tdae,found a lost purse and reported it...
i believe in good karma..wadever you do,life will take a similar turn to you...
hahas,like wad happened in OBS...lol...
taught sheng how to marinate chik wings too...so i shall expect things to turn out nicely this thurs...i hope ppl enjoy themselves rather than having....like wad kang said....
oh well...will work out tmr...continue my regime....
will not stick to the computer so much...

todae's expenditure.
carl's=$7.90
groceries=$5++
...almost spent up my weekly allowance...lol....gotta cook for lunch this entire wk....

lots of ppl have blogged bout their ophir experience..maybe shld also leave a mark here.....

ok here we go....

Day 0
stayed in at HQ.... reported at 1930hrs...well,this was kinda too early.. ppl were reporting all the way till 9 plus at nite... the clt that took us for the ophir training was there too...cute guy...haha:) taught us how to collect water...and it actually worked....lol was the beginiing for the worst,got left out as all the ntss ppl slept all at one corner....as usual,i was the last as i didnt chiong for the bunks...haiz... not that bad as i took the bed near the door,just that it was full as bedbugs,got itchy after lying... the night was bad...cldnt sleep well,was tossing ard...and wads worst was that some idiot slpt on top of me,this i figured out only when the journey to ophir continues...stupid guy,kept talking to ppl and kept swearing.... some acs guy slept at my right...cool guy and spoke to him all the way to ophir...

Day1
had breakfast...kway tiao wif fishcakes...gosh...wasnt feeling real good.....all the way to the coach...puked when we were reaching causeway...good thig.felt so much better after... transfereed when we went thru the malaysian customs...this time,a better coach...more spacious...sher taught me tai ti...and sorta took it up during this ophir trip...haha.... reached tangkak....as usual a simple malaysian town...had the rustic feeling..... and when we saw the mountain ranges...sher was terrified.........i told him that we had come all the way to MY and shld try our best to conquer..and yes he did...... the officer at gunung ledang resorts was a friendly uncle...haha....he kinda wanted everything to be done chop chop...and concurrently....was an intresting chap...spoke of jokes during the briefing... the resort stay was sooooo comfy until the next morning....haha....ate up the curry during the first nite... was kinda surprised to see the clt who took me for spec course and took me again for this ophir trip...

Day2
prayed b4 we climbed.... sher was still afraid of the mountains... was real cool...crossing waterfalls and rivers...leaping here and there... was foloing wynn until i almost lost sight of him...was like calling him to slow down...and he continued...ahhhh well....... eventuallty reached CP4.....cool.....set up our tents....taught the ppl how as i learnt in obs... hahs.... bathed in the river and was surprised to see fish..maybe kelah?or come kinda carp...... soaking cold waterr,refreshing.... fist taste of river water....chlorinated that is..... rested at nite...had a bonfire and the clts spoke of tales.... was kinda freaked out......everyone literally....nobody in my tent dare to ventured out at nite to pee...we even prepared a bottle...lolx...... kinabalu next!when i have the time and money and frens and permission....hahax...
Day3
the climb up the summit was an ardous journey...KFC...literally killed us.....was the worst of all the checkpoints....those monster roots had our hearts beating....sher was left behind me...cldnt catch up as he was tired.... was leaping and jumping up the roots and slipping on the soil.... the kambing cave was cool....and the climb down took much more time....haiz..... well took the shorter route for the steep slopes....had the first taste of ropes course wifout the gloves....way cooollllllll... the toughest part was from botak to the summit... the "marsh"as i dubbed it almost dampened our spirits.... the back ppl...andy,darren,sheng poh,me and sher and a few other guys took this alter route...to the summit..haiz... the view at the summit was well worth every drip of sweat... the descend almost wiped us clean...especially down KFC......the legend of the roots..... sher was damn tired and he may have slowed us down but we waited for him..and we almost got lost in KFC...only sher,me sp,andy,darren and glad that we found ken the camera guy... so freakin terrfied...and kept consoling sher and told him to quik up... reached CP5 at ard 4...way off time...everyone was frakin tired and the rangers told us to run back to campsite.. emotionally tired,mentally exhausted and physically ruined,i ran myself back to campsite...was literally foloing wynn's footsteps..lost a few steps and slipped but got back fast on my steps.. begin drizziling when we reached back camp...Thank God... went back into our tents and the drizzle became heavier... our tent flooded...and clt syamil came to our tents and offered us trash bags...... wahh disrupted...blog the other parts when free

emotionally disturbed.
physically afflicted
mentally weakened

haiz....

真是不了解。嗨。。。。
明天。。。。很忙，要赶到很急。
不知道。。。。
haiz,i still think el typing is so much eaier...
pre-ophir syndrome...

i left a mark here,when i come back,will i still be ablt to find this patch of sand that i once left my prints,or will it be covered by sand by the tides,by the elements....

okay emo abit...

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

people cant have fears?
wth...im like worried bout tmr and ppl say im a girl..
arghhhh

tmr's reporting day...haiz...
may it be fun....

mixed feelings....

3 more days to ophir..kinda uneasy about these trips nowdays...lazy maybe....
argh......
took a lonely 33 back home tdae....hahas...maybe had a chance to think bout wad happened...
cldnt reckon wad to get for ys bdae....haiz...went town and cldnt find a thing that i tot wld be suitable....
my transporation fee went a record high...10 bucs in a wk....dunno wther can still be able to claim back the money....
and ya,have been frequenting the gym these few days..just to try out....went,duno how it will work out....

ophir pohir prhio......

so sian...

okay
went skl to finish up some adminstrative stuff...
acommpanied jason and company to ICA to get their passports renewed for the ophir trip...
sigh....guess wad....saw thru each other's passports and found that jason had gone to mauritius b4...its like so unbelievable...(abit biased here)


den went for lunch at crawford,den again tried their western food....

this time's the chicken schnitzel,cool name...large chk fillet fried wif herbs and spices..cool.....
didnt know there was a shortcut there from ICA...ahhhh...stupid me...
guess that alot ppl know much,much much more stuff than me....
den jason and sherman got the same bag as me...welll from exactly the same shop too...hahas....
wynn said he wanted to change his,cause he feels that its too small...lol....i felt kena conned when sherm and jason paid like 42 bucs...ahhh when i paid like 44....shit shit shit...

cant judge ppl by its cover..i suppose many ppl are guilty of this...
humans are very superficial creatures.Only when we spend time with them and get to know them will we discover their inner ":carapace"......
haiz.....i'm a superficial guy too......much more than ppl suppose......


PS:sorry guys for the daoing during the walk from tanjong pagar to Raffles place...and well,sorry for the long walk..hahas...
and all along when i was wearing the earphones...the player was not on at all...hahahss