Sunday

i had a family dinner at zhou's kitchen today evening!
I liked the concept of the dining.Although i feel that i have a rather traditional tastebud,for i can't really take to the combination of savory and sweet palate in a dish.Such as you ask me to eat a chicken chop,lam with barbecue sauce.I'd go for mushroom sauce or black pepper.Barbecue sauce just doesn't really appeal to my tastebuds,though my gustatory thalamus will tell me that this is a rather intricate dish and that its fusion.mix of asian and western,therefore,explaining the sweet and savory taste.
The interiors were nice.It was at far east square.Quiet place,nice ambience for a sunday night.Away from all the crowds.

And then,after everything ended,i wondered how it would be like,to be working part time as a waiter.Ending job at 9 plus on a sunday,where everyone else would be at home with their loved ones already,while you are going home from work,and preparing for a new week which starts in a few more hours.Would you,1.be hanging out for supper with your colleagues?2.Chiong right home after work?3.Take your own sweet time,and appreciate the soundless corridors of the CBD on a sunday night,and take a straight bus home,by yourself sans company?4.Call your close friend,bug him/her and ask him/her to accompany you on the phone while you go home?

lol,farni post i must say.but i'm glad that i manage to remember what i thought of in the car.

PS:i remembered how you told me about my wednesdays.How i wanted it to be free,like all the other people around me but i cannot,cause wednesdays are water training days.And whenever i see doraemon,i'm reminded of you.You said his pouch is very magical,cause he can bring out anything that can solve every trouble that is happening.

don't go looking for love

i just found out that alot of people around me are leaving for ITP,be it overseas or local.its kinda sad.almost half of my class is also going for itp this time round.thinking about it makes me feel uneasy.

this last paper,hai.i know i have to mug pretty hard cause i forgotten alot of the beginning chapters.

ok,let's just put feelings away for the moment,and concentrate hard these few days.

That everything would be like it was before

sit bus till ass cramps.think about things that make you smile to yourself and say"hey,i got it!haha,its not that bad afterall"

temporal satisfication.at the end of the day,its still you who have to slog off yourself and think about all those things that come crashing down on your when you are at your emotionally-weakest point.

two papers.one more huge bigass before everyday training starts:)

i'm sick.and i havent trained for a week,fitness gonna drop.and i feel very hungry right now cause i only had a few pieces of sandwiches for lunch cause i didnt have appetite and the sore throat makes swallowing food so tough.

1 paper down.2 more to go.and i'm starting to get lazy already.

penny.i found this:)

Mushroom Pot

fatigue

it just started to pour outside.

how i wish i can sleep right now,i'd just lay flat on my bed.i havent been so tired for awhile.and the past few days took my strength away very quickly.

life hasnt been good.looks like i'm gonna screw up again this semester.

exams in a week.and then its holidays.

i so wanna talk to someone about my fears,the right person,but it seems like i'm keeping them to myself instead.like i can't openly talk about it,and not feeling bad/awkward/lousy/embarrassing/lowly after that.

Faber Drive-Tongue Tied

a land lost in time

i managed to catch UP last night,with the companionship of a few other guys who kept complaining about how boring the movie was.but i appreciate the sacrifice dudes:)

the film was very touching although the 3D glasses made me really dizzy afterwards.and i could say its so much better than monsters vs aliens.so,so,much better.if only this movie was released earlier.

and i needa study again.lets just say liberation is near,although i havent planned much for the holidays yet.

so many people are going for their attachment,and now,i do wonder why i made such a huge sacrifice.i gave up day trips to malaysia,gave up wonderful vacation time,gave up time hanging out,gave up time thinking about how shiitish my life would be.And then,i could assure myself that i would and should be very happy,if all these sacrifices paid off and i bring back a piece of bedokian memory back to homeground when next semester starts and then i become flaccid.

better than me

i really wish i could rewind time.i wished i never said all those things that make me look like a loser now.

since you have decided to put your time on it,why not make it a fruitful one,give it your best!

In my opinion, the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty... handsome, what have you, the right person will still think the sun shines out your ass. That's the kind of person that's worth sticking with.

ac:its a public holiday.just sit back and relax,don't keep constraining yourself over time.

jh:hmm.yeah,later on,time management becomes time constraint.

iireversible,rate-limiting step.
sigh.how sad

hi,i got stung by a bee today!
hope that i turn into a mutant and get super powers so that i could become stronger and faster:)

i wanna watch this

uncanny resemblance

past few days have been spent looking and staring at books and notes other than the exceptional mealtimes and trainings.
2 tests down,one more to go!
and i'm looking forward to this long weekend break.i need a short while to take a breather,before i embark on yet another phase of studying.

but what disturbs me is that,no matter how much i read and study,my peers seem to do better than me.not that i havent tried,but i gave all ears to the lecturer during class and tried to ask questions during tutorial sessions,and tried my best to understand most of the topics,but no matter how i tried,there's bound to be loopholes which i fall through.Its not that i want to be the top scorer in class or be the top notch and obtain a diploma in merit(i wished!).What i want is just to be eligible for uni entry and thats all.the rest can let time decide.
i seemed to have exhausted most of what i can do,at least.and it really sucks to see everyone grabbing their books while you thought you have managed to study most of what seems to be.

and its really pressuring to have so many things coming your way.UNDER PRESSURE.
was told that ac managed to clock two days of morning row.while jh managed 0.not that i didnt want to,but the tests,everything.hai



its not simple;
its not simple to juggle so many trainings with school
its not simple to wake up at 6am everyday despite so many alarms and me snoozing everyone of them
its not simple to continue with the last set of 15x4 endurance weights
its not simple keep yourself awake at the most important of times during lectures
its not simple to read through a whole page of molecular biology notes without looking up and getting distracted
its not simple to pull through 4x2km sprints
and its really not simple to maintain such a situaiton,where you hold on to what you believed,and continue doing it with faith,without thinking otherwise what may happen at the other end but still continue to believe in it,cause in the first place,you have set your sights and told yourself that this time's gonna be okay.and after going through so much thoughts and feelings and you still continue to hold on to it,cause you believe.that someday,out of the blue and when you least expected it to happen,you feel elated,that what you believed in all the while,has always been there and then.knowing that although you had that many things in mind,you managed to find a spot,somewhere right there in your heart,a special place,for the special belief.