2008

what a good way to end the year with,a holiday in bangkok.5 days in sin city.wah power siol.
the food,the sights,the mega malls,the fakes,the girls,the serviced suites.wahlao.memory overload.and not to say the food on the plane.the air stewardess.i thinking being an air steward is qutie cool.you get to travel...and thats your job!cool isnt it.but i suppose these kind of things have a height limit.and of course,looks.

5 days is pretty much.and i get attached to the life there like for quite awhile.every morning,waking up to the curtains beside your bed.having buffet breakfast with muesli cereals,buttered toast,bacon,eggs done omelette style..omg..and then now its like that."smacks".
back to busy life for a few days.then its NEW YEAR.lol.celebrations again.then the big thing in another 3 weeks time.then i'm gonna take a break.and study.

and i've been thinking about it alot these few weeks,even during the trip.and i just can't seem to forget about it.considering XXXXX.

The days leading to Christmas

christmas is well a few days away.this few days will mark the beginning of all the feasting and stuffs,not to say the food in bkk.i think its gonna be tough to gain my stamina back for the marathon.and its in such a short notice.and i dont even know if i am able to join the novice category.

and i cut my hair short.really short as compared to previously.

friday

i am quite reluctant to let friday pass so quickly.its my only rest day.and i want to make full use of it.but its really sad to see it pass so quickly,like its 11pm right now.and that i cant hang out till late and stuff.and friday nights really make me very worried about the next day's training.and that how am i gonna survive it.etc.
hai,i think i must relax and take things easy.its not gonna be so tough.relax..my mind....

Marathon

i don't know what i am in for man.
C1 14 km.wts!2 portages.wtf!
and its only 3 weeks from the competition.and its held right after all the indulgences from christmas.like that how sia...

Sports 2

Poly was easy piece of shit,as compared to partial fractions,molecular biology,analytical chemistry and general paper in JC.This was just the beginning.Things got worse as Mrs Mak gradually went fast and faster and how she spoke about our future in SP's School of CLS.
Term1 sem 1 came by,and term 2 went past rather quickly.Soon,wednesdays had became compulsory trainings for us.
In the first place,i thought K1 was a tough category.Soon,i realised my piece of crap was worst,C1 was hell,i soon found stroking unimportant,plain and useless.I thought i was just weak!and lousy.And i didn't realise this folly till now,on how stroking was so fucking IMPT.But all hope was not lost,i can still improve.
C1 wasn't what i expected.It didn't turn out to be.I had thought that it was impossible when back in CJC and everyone had their time to try out the boats.I saw how hwa jie sprinted up the lagoon and how his boat glided through the calm water.It was fucking awesome i thought to myself.and i didn't expect myself to be in the shoes,a few months later.It was like a fairytale.

Initial passion was easy for me.I always had passion whenever i saw how good others were.This worked for me till until then,when i realised that some other things in life were much for impt than canoeing.Things drifted abit,but i managed to pull all these back.Just in Time.


TBC....

Sports

Frankly,i have never done sports in my life before.unless you speak of those primary school sports day thing,i have a trophy for it.It was in my primary 1 or 2.And things got tougher so i never went on to compete in running and stuff.
Then secondary school came,i went into NCC,under the numerous reviews from my relatives of how their sons got tanner and got more disciplined and shit.Secondary school days passed,and i realised how shit my unit was only when i was in sec 3.Too Late!tried to help it but to no avail.
Entered JC just to have a "taste" of the life,and i got hooked.Did lots of idiotic stuffs which i never got to try in secondary school cos of numerous reasons (ie i was a bit of a hum ji,i felt that i wasnt really good friends with those that were popular so i daren't do big stuff).Decided to give C-A-N-O-E-I-N-G a shot when i was in CJC.Recognised a few people from ntss,teo junkai and some other cool dudes.
Still remember the first training,IT WAS HELL.doing hill runs.pushups after every segments of trainings.team pull-ups whereby the whole J1s had to complete a certain number of pullups.and lastly,to end it off,PUSHUPS again!It was the first time where encouragement struck me,where everyone else tried to encourage their friends by saying JIAYOU!,C'MON HOLD IT There...
after that training,i somehow thought that its a CCA,so i must make it for trainings just like NCC.and it turned out to be shit.
Had to report to CJC the next morning to have morning trainings,Captain warned us that we will puke out all our breakfast.Heng i didn't.but sucides were really KILLERS.
bathed and then assembly.
and i remembered the 22 rounds around CJC track with the team.om gawd!

and then in poly,i hit the button on CANOEING again!it was shit this time round,even more trainings!



this excerpt will continue the next time i have time

Love Actually

Caught this movie yesterday night over channel 5.it went on all the way till 1 plus in the morning i guess.but i switched the TV off shortly after 1am.cause of paddling the next morning.Well,i slept only for like 4 hours+.but overall its quite an awesome movie.Comedy wise its really good.But somehow i found that the thick british accent can be quite tough to follow,especially when they speak too fast.but around 40 minutes or an hour into the show,i can roughly figure out somehow,who the characters were and such.
the flick mainly comprises of a few groups of people interconnected to each other somehow.But i pretty much liked Keira Knightly's part,whereby her husband's friend was secretly in love with her.and how he confessed and such.Its so consoling,maybe you can say its dwelling in my own wreckage.And how he mentioned the self-preservation thing.

Got this from wiki.
Self preservation is part of an animal instinct that demands that the organism survives.Pain and fear are parts of this mechanism. Pain causes discomfort so that the organism is inclined to stop the pain. Fear causes the organism to seek safety and may cause a release of adrenaline which has the effect of increased strength and heightened senses such as hearing, smell, and sight.

Maybe you can say that this is essential in my life:O

And i was at shop & save with teamies when they secretly were trying to browse through ST for the movie listings when the interview with Rui En caught my eye.Came back home and decided to go through it.It didn't occur to me that she so much a loner though.
And it struck me suddenly,when i was bathing(at the strangest of timings) that when a person ages,the ability to take loneliness and the mindset to be by oneself seems to depreciates.People thrist for companionship and like me,i want a larger social circle.But at the end of the day,it somehow goes back to point 0,where you began,started.Oh wells,maybe its emotional therapy.or such.

Afraid of Balls?Afraid of Water?

i was at bugis just now.managed to convinced my mum to get me a pair of shorts.cause i told her i would be wearing them most of the time.
it was as always,C-R-O-W-D-E-D.but quite cool as well,got to see lots of things.lots of fashion and other stuffs.and my dad to comment on those trucker caps worn by mats which can fit 2 heads.he asked me why people like to wear like that nowadays.
i told him,aiya,not us.its just them.

for twice,i am on the same tpic as yesterdat when i was with wynn.he mentioned that they have a very good fashion sense and paired things really well.you can just omit their nike sandals with skinnies style,trucker caps.and of others.
but i think their idea of 3 quarter sleeves shrit with berms is quite ingenious.and also their slim shoes with berms style.lots of people are following it nowadays.



and i havent been writing much thoughts about life nowadays.i realised that i have been losing my sense of self-discipline.its very important to not be complacant over some stuffs.like seriously,some things you can just get emo over it for like over a few months then when life returns and kicks you back to norm,you lose that few goals you set for yourself when you were emoing and those few goals that you promised yourself to accomplish.

and well,i seriously,like seriously have to get over my kan-chiongness,but i think that its so much better now,as compared to when i first joined the team.had late lunch with the few sprinters that went for polo and they mentioned that if i was playing during 3v3,and when i have the ball in my hand,and that there was an alumni who called out my name in the crowds,(JIAHONG!),i would most probably turn to him and throw him the ball.XD
its like so damn buttery fingers+rashness+unstableness+dno how to relac

oh wells..

Spoilt Brat

i've been behaving like one since mid Nov or somewhere in the beginning of Dec.
Starbucks like practically every week,either that or some ice blended from some cafe.
other than that,i just bought some stuffs.and i think its gonna continue to be like that until christmas time.
money fly awayzxzx.

on the other hand,polo training was still the same as always.sprints followed by dribbling and then cross passing and ending with a match.The match,as always is so damn exciting whenever you get the ball.Its like 10X easier to get the ball than soccer and if you know me,i will just aim and shoot when i get hold of any ball.kan chiong shit,now that my friends mentioned that.
oh well,hand roll and stern turn still not mission accomplished yet.Next wednesday aye!

and i have 2 new wounds on each of my thumbs=O

Yashica!

on the day before biophysics paper,fauzi said he was gonna take post-exams emotions.so here it is!its so damn cool that i get to own a picture taken by an SLR.

Trainings and Bilsters

its the second time since i got a blister.this time its not on my palm,but rather on the skin between the thumb and index finger.its really damn irritating.and painful.tsk.

and i feel that i have be quite a hindrance to the people around me.maybe i should talk lesser.and not give those silly excuses to the problems that i create.

Run your own race

the past few days have been dedicated to hanging out and catching up with friends that i rarely get to meet due to stuffs that requires my commitment and also planning what i am gonna do this holidays,rather than stoning at the com(i will make this inherent).

its a rainy hari raya haji. woke up at 5.30am.god damn heavy rain.lightning alert probably,so decided not to go.

oh and i'm going,trying to catch up on those movies that i have yet to watch.
Yesterday:Saw 4 and deuce bigalow;european gigolo.
next up:pirates of carribean trilogy.

Wednesdays

zzzzzzzzzzz.
wednesdays have become the second most dreaded day of the week,following tuesdays.
reason behind it.......the crowd opposite my block of flats.zzzzzzzzz.and its even worst on emo days,like today.Rarrrrrr.

Life Standstill

it sucks.being in exam mood at this time of the year where everyone else i partayyying,or rather,to be more precise,expecting a huge economic downturn.
and youre here,counting down your days to friday noon,where you have one day or more to relac and then training starts.you feel damn shit,cause for the last two or three weeks,you havent been training and all that fat accumulation and oily shtixzzx that you eat havent been burnt.

and sometimes i wonder if i would really go faster if i consume some oily stuff ie.roast pork,bbq chicken wings,hot dogs from FC6,spicy drumlets from FC6;rather than eliminating all of them out of my training week and allwoing myself to indulge only when the weekends comes.i wonder...