feeling kind of down these few days,maybe have been pondering too much over my future prospects of my cca and the way i interact with those around me...

yesterday,did gym and stuff.wanted to blog but dont have the time.and since im doing the essay rite now,well,lets just use a lil.lol.

i must brace up..must be more open...10 more wks and i must cherish it..the times with my frens.cause i may not see them after

after wad people say,you think and its really kinda frightening...i must learn to prioritize....

after getting things done this wk,i must prepare for studying life...ahhh once again....

and its weird...feeling so free all of a sudden and you yourself thinks that study is more impt
so its up to you to make a decision..and it will mark you for this 10 weeks.

im giving up my CCA,after this week..so no matter who or wad telling me..i will not do anything
next,i must be open,say hello or good morning.you mouth cant talk isit..so big a mouth for wad
next,study and whack...
i guess thats all

well,its only been the first day and the hecticness can be felt by me.
sometimes,when you are sitting alone,you feel as if you are real,finnaly that you really feel the pressure that presses you that the Os are nearing..
its only been the first day and teachers are pushing for hw..even our lovable el teacher...haiz...now there's the pile there left to complete...

haiz.
im gonna work hard.maybe its just saying cause usually the mood will go off and ppl start enjoying a wk or 2 atfer the first day of school...shit

must 坚强.

you have all the time in the world to party to play to know girls to do wadever you want after the Os.so must jiayou for the remaining months..

2 more days to skl reopen.not very optimistic about it..maybe im enjoying too much already.
feels as if everything is sooooo boring...
chem,bio,physics all completed syllabus.so i suppose its all revisions now..
only left Amaths left to chiong,and i havent been practising it..forgotten so many things...i think im in deep shit...and i dunnoo how to finish it..

ok,i feel as if things are like a clockwork..so inflexible...and im doing all the same things everyday...and it aint interesting or fun at all....and is clubbing and stuff fun?you cant even drink..and when you do,you get nauseous all over and starts to have weird syndromes..man....wads life...i wan to relax man..

i feel talking to nicholas is good.cause maybe he has the same sentiments as me.or wad.

had movie today..great.maybe the jokes.but it was rather short.
vivo was okay today..it looks all the same everytime i go there...maybe the changes of the people..
had my hair cut ytd,wasnt that great....maybe im underestimating people...again!

and its weird when i see familiar faces on the road..im afraid,i fear well of the possibility of recognising wrong faces..its embarassing and being told off by a total stranger...well,i think i can trust my sense of right and wrong..and i have faith in my ability to rmb faces..and so.....i think its not so bad...so wad if you get it wrong..lol



i have to be more POSITIVE.
alil more of a narcissist.lol

im back.
it has been a fast week..days gone by so fast.so much time spent on travelling..but overall it was good..oh it better be good cause we paid 300 bucks.lol.

Day 1:
travelled all the way up to Perak..bus journey lasted like 12 hours.yep.but stopped a few stops.to relieve ourselves and stuff.first destination in perak was Lata Kijiang waterfall
.kinda enjoyable but things got alil caught up when they played too much.someone's slippers got stuck in between the rocks and the slippery waterfall..oh well,lesson lerant.not to play there.took a few shots.and later on went on to Gopeng.had to stopover at a town and transfer onto a lorry.had a bumpy lorry ride into the campsite..had dinner and made ourselves comfortable...suay again..the stilits broke and we had to make do with wad we have..shit..first day so many things happen already.though the lorry ride was fun.can feel the wind in your face.


Day 2:
went caving.got downright dirty and went rafting next.good thing i changed grp with the others..lol.if not its damn shit..had quite alot of fun seeing the stalagmites and stalactites.but the cave was darn dusty and smells of bat poo i guess..there was also traces that the communists used the cave during the 80s to hide from the the authorities..scribbles of words worshipping Chairman Mao.
rafting was good.not as bad as i thought out to be...at least im able to swim abit.very happy..lol.

kinda tired.dun want to go on anymore.those that want to see the potos i will develop them..very scenic picutes i have here.=DDD

well,it ended..maybe finally or maybe indefinitely..
its sad,you know.i dont know if i fit into their clique..sometimes it makes me kinda wonder...though wei shi's always trying to show care to those around...maybe its just that i dont talk enuff yea...

yea its sad ,i know..haiz...i just cant express my feelings fully here..
just now,i was thinking so much..like way so much and now its wordless here..

rahavan's butter chicken was good..and youtube has a vid of the original ad..yea and its still funny..

no ball la...its the last day man..and you left without even saying goodbye or anything...shit you...someday im gonna smack the daylights out of you idiot..and dont come begging me for chances...nvm.just some crap...
oh please...its not important,gosh so wad if she's cute..hell man,wad youre thinking...thinking too much...you didnt even do anything....and you only did activites with her once ok..and its introduced...haii..stopp thinking about it jiahong...face it..have a good sleep and tmr is zoo day..just get it off your mind..its impossible that all the stupid things that you thought will happen...

this is the worst series of diarrhoea i ever had....i felt like visitng the toilet in like 1 or 2 hrs..really bad..and it aint enjoyable as once i sit down,it will take like 5 mins to completely flush out the contents..awwww

and i just completed day 1 of the confident communicator...not that bad but EU was better...though there were more kids around..this was significantly more matured-based and content-based....the speakers were not as pushy as in EU and we had to do more writing..and wad makes me glad was that i felt really good being able to be accepted by those in my group..i feel really blessed and im gonna make good use of this oppurtunity cause most of the time,im rarely noticable and rarely speak up..tmr's gonna be a better day..i believe..and i will get to know more people around..

wad is mindchamps encouraging when singapore is a place where people criticise and make you feel inferior and wants you to reflect on your actions.why do those aussies and new zealanders keep pushing you to be more confident in yourself and express yourself more freely,when people talk bad and complain bout you when you aint around or speak about eh you suck and you think you very friendly,act only.and eh,why he keep hanging out with that girl.he like her ah...all these kind of things..

awaiting day 2.....

i think i understood alot of things today.lol
and i guess its a good thing.
nothing much to say.just that i have to start doing alot of stuff.