i finally know wads bugging me.
i've got a serious social problem.after speaking to jiawei during hcl lessons and ivan on the bus.i felt so much better.i guess its not to late to change b4 i get out of this school.

hmm first.i make frens by giving in to their requests..i feel thats so damn tsk..like wad jw said,i believe that true frens are made by a long term basis,by firm relationships.not like these little things.thats why i kept giving in stupidly.thats how strong rooted rs are built.not many ppl will appreciate and be as understanding as those around me.and i shld say that im much blessed to have so understanding ppl ard.it aint the same in the society.

second..after going so much confidence boosting and leadership courses,i feel that ive a big regret.i dun make full use of them..and look,now.everytime i tries to initiate a talk or say hi or sumthing so simple,i tend to push back and delay..some things cant be delayed..some chances will slip away..and i have gone thru many slipped chances...the adrenaline starts pumping and suddenly,you back out bcs of some idiotic reasons,you think too much boy.
i guess i will start with saying morning to ppl ard me.and the friendly guard at the gate in the morning..heh

i guess that will be all for today.