i know it happened so long ago and by now,things are all so different.
but i cannot help but think that that saturday nightout with you is one of my best saturdays spent.
and now and then,i will think of you and WHAT ACTUALLY WENT WRONG.
i know perhaps that there was nothing wrong at all.it just didnt seem right in the first place and that things just continued anyway,and eventually,things just got to the worst and i said the shittiest things ever.
i have never actually blamed anyone for what had happened.maybe except me.
moreover,i guessed i was too anxious then.

but,on a brighter note,it was great to have known you.
i didn't expect myself to have ventured so far into canoe training.and lasted so long.
and its not just you,more of who i had spoke to.
you people told me about fulfilling lives.and that how life could be so boring with you yourself just slacking around.


like how it all happened in beauty and the beast.like how belle met beast and how they danced that night.how beast didnt expect belle to come back for him.it all occurred so magically.maybe just for the fact that its not happily ever after for me though.
i guess this is really true afterall."Barely even friends,then somebody bends"

and i think its a irreversible impression.
its not that i'm desperate or what.
but this extra post is just something that i really wanted to type out after so long.
i know that things are probably different now.and its no use thinking so much into it.
but well,its at least something i can treasure and look back in the future.
cause you're the best i ever had.