downfall

can't help me think that this word is staring at me from all spaces,every moment i look at some symbolism of canoeing.i know its not possible to control every aspect of things,but i feel so not in control when i'm not around.especially at times like this when everyone else is not around,doing their internships.sigh,really depressing.makes me look as though i have not done enough or good enough as the others,even though they are doing pretty well in the eyes of some.its just not that standard,that optimum standard yet.wtv.i'm going to try again