to build it up and tear it down

yesterday was probably the worst day in canoe history.it never came so close as to offer me such an impact.
giving up hadn't been an option,since ivp,but yesterday's even jolted this spark again.and i thought about it,for a little while(thanks to such a fast-paced life and the people around me).
maybe its really this thin line of margin that separates me away from giving up.and it will probably be like this,even after these three years.thin line.